Well alright! It's okay!

One of my favorite songs right now has one of the cuuuutest music videos in the world. I think it's mostly because I have a huuuuuge girl crush on Zooey Deschanel (remember my girl crush on her sister Emily?)

Anyway, it's for She & Him's song "In the Sun"

She & Him - In The Sun

Enjoy! :)

During a heart to heart with Thomas one night, my dad told Thomas that everytime the house phone rings, it scares him. He assumes that it's a bad phone call--something bad happened to one of his kids (or grandkids). I understood the feeling, after all, there's so many people in our family, it wouldn't be completely unlikely.

My mom just called me. Basically telling me that she already spoke to Lisa and wants us to not come home this weekend to visit grandma, but to wait until the next weekend, since we'll be coming home anyway for Labor Day & Amanda. I have to say though, when I saw that I was receiving a phone call from "Home," I had to take a deep breath (and hold it) before picking up the phone. I was terrified of it being bad news. It sounds like that news may be coming soon though :(

It's weird. I don't think grandma has known who I am (she actually kept thinking I was my sister Rachel for a little while) for at least a year or so now. It makes me sad, but I mean, she's 93. With a shit ton of grandkids. I can't expect her to remember us all when she has a hard time recognizing her own children.

Anyway, if you have any extra time. Just a short little prayer for my grandma would be nice :)

Is Over-use a Form of Neglect?

Dear Life (and my Sanity),

I'm sorry I've neglected you. Actually, I haven't really neglected you, I've actually been keeping you pretty busy. But I haven't really given you time for yourself, so for that, I am sorry for the neglect. Things are going insane. But I think you're actually happy about all of this (especially now with Thomas gone, I know you like staying busy). Just a couple of notes:

I know you want to get in as many hours as possible, but maybe a day or two at the gym won't hurt? I know you want to get everything at Anthropologie but... umm, how about don't? :) I know you DON'T want to clean your room, but how about stop the procrastinating on here and actually just go in there and do it? Can you believe it? I'm 24 and I still HATE cleaning my room.

Anyway, just go do a load of laundry, put something on tv, plan out how you want your room to be (I see a coffee table leaving my room and a dresser leaving my closet to join my room), and try to be in bed by... 11? Is that too ambitious?

Yes, it is too ambitious. Because I just sat here writing this as Johnny gathered up HIS items for laundry. So... I'll PLAN for laundry to be done? ;) Later...?

New York in a [Camera] Flash!

I'm hoping that I can keep the memory of things we did via my photos I took while in NYC. I knew this would happen, which was why I tried to write as much as possible right away. But alas, the inevitable happened. I don't have it in me to write a full blog on NYC. We just did too much and task of writing it all out seems daunting.

Here's the gist of our trip:

Lisa & Chi Thu treated me to some pretty sweet fooding. It was awesome. Lots of walking, but way worth it--especially the Brooklyn Bridge. It was great getting to hang out with my sisters for a vacay. I'd do it all over again (this time we'd all get drunk instead of just Lisa :P)!

You Can't Always Get What You Want...

But if you try sometimes, you just might find, you get what you need!

For awhile, I was feeling a little down in the dumps. I try to have a bright outlook on life. I've told myself countless times that no matter what happens, things could always be worse and eventually, things will work out and be just fine. At the risk of sounding at all preachy, God won't ever give me something I can't handle.

But I threw myself a private pity party anyway. Room for just one. It didn't last too long, but it definitely happened for a short bit of time. I mean, to be honest, I just felt like I've tried (and I feel like I still am trying) very hard to help out my friends in need. I don't know how many of my friends I've been able to help find jobs when they were a little strapped for cash. Granted, it wasn't exactly their dream job, but it was a job that paid money that they weren't otherwise being paid. I've tried to be a good person who tries to be positive and think positively. But for a little while, it was kind of feeling like a one way street. I felt like Demi Moore's character at the beginning of G.I. Jane when she didn't want to use the step to get over the wall. Like I was there at the bottom helping everyone get over that hump of so-called shitty early 20s life. But then.. it felt like everyone else was getting there, and I was still stuck at the bottom. And y'all know me, my upper body strength is terrible. I just can't seem to get over the wall. And I feel like I've already helped everyone else over. So now I'm alone on this super shitty side of the wall.

So that was what the pity party was all about. But I think I've found my silver lining and have thus felt a lot better about it. I have 4 jobs. You read right. As of yesterday, I officially have 4 jobs. Part time at CPI, Leaps N Bounds, Anthropologie and I am now officially a substitute teacher for AISD. All I want is that teaching job, but it seems I got to jump through some hoops to get there. I'm okay with that. Anyway so working 4 jobs doesn't sound like much of a silver lining, does it? Well, it's not really. BUT, I've worked it out so that I'm able to still make enough money to survive, all while being able to work out a system in which my employers allow me to call in and not come in when I know I'm going to be subbing.

I've convinced that this would not be the case had I not been a great employee. I mean, who just lets someone make up their own hours and pretty much come and go as they please? Not a lot of places do (or if it is a lot, then don't tell me, because I'm feeling slightly special--so don't ruin it). So anyway, I attribute my good fortune of jobbage (despite the fact that I'm working a ton a week) to me being a good person that other people (i.e., my former/current employers) want to help out with some flexibility.

Also, at both CPI and Leaps, I'm getting paid more than I expected them to pay me, so that's always a plus.

So, aside from my earlier post of having Johnny as a great friend who's offered to help me in my hour of need--which hopefully won't be necessary with 4frickenjobs--(Thomas goes without saying, though his help is much more emotional seeing as how he's still in school), there's my silver lining. I will try to not doubt it's existence ever again.